“I am tired of you!” he screamed to my face.
“And I honestly don’t like the way you look, okay?” he repeats, as usual, scanning me head to toe with his eyes, like I was suddenly nothing!
“Now listen to me Lisa. I’m not sure this marriage can work anymore” My knees vibrated at the words. I almost sank, thanks to the counter I was initially resting on.
“Just three months Lisa! Three months! I want to start seeing changes in that body of yours, or else, you pick one between that portly body and this beautiful marriage,” he yells. I can tell the gravity of his words from his eyes. He was sternly hurt too.
“Please, I’m sorry Nick. It’s not my fault,” I tried to plead, even though I couldn’t approach him due to my throbbing knee.
“Don’t plead me Lisa! If it’s not your fault, then just do something about it! I’m fed up of being married to someone who looks like my grandma!”
Wow! That word hurt badly.
He finally calmed, wheezing heavily from her prior anger and looking guilt-ridden. “I’m sorry for the hurtful words, okay? But I’m never going back on my statements. I give you just three months Lisa. Do something about your fatness please.”
He grabbed his briefcase and stormed out, leaving me to say no words anymore.
I turned back to the burnt toast. He was supposed to eat it that morning. An exasperated sigh escaped my lip as tears stroll freely down my cheek.
I’d burnt his breakfast due to the repercussion of my overweight body. I usually get tired standing for a long time, and I was only trying to take some rest in the living room, till the toast gets ready. The food got burnt while I was finding it tough to go back to the kitchen due to my heavy body and bizarre achy knee.
I understand Nick’s pains clearly, and I don’t blame his actions. It wasn’t my first time making such mistakes, and he’d always endured it.
I don’t have what to blame for my fatness. It has always been a lineage, so how could I change it?
The following morning, I walked to my mirror. It’s even, almost unable to show me all my body. It was so small and tiny before me.
I tried to contain my tears at the moment, but it was unbearable.
I definitely need to speak with Olivia, my childhood and bosom friend. She knows almost everything about me.
I picked up my phone and dialed her number.
“Lisa baby! How are you doing today?”
I sighed. Unlike me, she was excited.
Well, she should.
She has no body humiliation to worry about. Her shape is just as perfect and charming as a mermaiden. Slim, curvy, sexy, and gorgeous. Definitely, just the opposite of mine.
“Lisa?” she called when I was not replying. “What’s wrong with you?”
“Nick gave me a three month caution” I can’t help it, I blurt out.
“Three months…What’s that supposed to mean please?” she was confused.
“He said our marriage will end in three months if he doesn’t see a decrease in my plumpness.”
“Oh my goodness!” she exclaimed, another round of cries escaped my lip.
“Oh don’t cry baby…stop it!” she reproved, “Listen, remember I told you I was travelling for a business meeting. I’m there right now so we wouldn’t be able to talk for a long time but please, be strong for me. You know I don’t really have a solution for this but I promise you, I will speak with the friends I’m making here right now, to find out what we can do, okay?”
I nodded sluggishly; I don’t believe anything that can be done to change this body exists. I’d been on the journey for a perfect body shape for over nine years. I don’t believe there’s a solution anymore.
“Okay” I replied cheerfully to make Olivia feel okay.
“Thank you baby. Just cheer up please. I believe we will find something to do about it before the time. You can’t lose Nick too.”
“Thanks Lisa,” I said and hung up the call.
It’s true. I can’t lose Nick too, not again. I’ve lost a lot of men in my 20’s. My fatness was the reason I never got to marry earlier.
It all started when I thought it was time for me to settle with my first love, Henry, and begin a beautiful family. I was 25, out of college, and rocking a good-paying job. Henry also was already financially stable, and when I voiced it was time we officially become a couple, he threw the word to my face and asked how I expect him to marry an obese lady like me.
It hurt! Really hurt!
And that was how a six-year relationship was ruined, and I couldn’t forgive myself for being fat.
This continued in all my sequential relationships till I was 32.
Through this period, I’d been trying all my best to slim down or at least lose some weight permanently by taking different physical and online classes, hitting the gym relentlessly, cutting back on my fatty foods, and even my three square meals a day.
But the results were always the same, shedding some weight and gaining them back again. It was as if I was not trying my best at all, really exhausting.
During the period I met Nick, I’d just successfully shed 35 lbs. off my 295 lbs. from one of my temperamental success stories.
Nick was the only one who’d exhibited more endurance and longest steady love, despite my body and even when I was routinely regaining back the weight. He told me we could sort it out and enrolled me in a gym class before we got married.
I sighed as I watch my body again. I’d dropped the class when it only seems to be getting worse for me, and just right now, I’m weighing 366 lbs.
So many things I can’t freely do even when I’m just 34.
“Have you already found a way to shed off those fats in your body?” Nick asked me a month later when we were getting ready to honor a wedding invite from one of his friends.
I felt dejected immediately; I didn’t want him to scream at me.
“Have you?” he asked again
“Nick, trust me. I’m trying my best,” I groaned.
He shakes his head, “And I’m not even seeing a change?”
I slothfully shake my head.
Olivia had told me she couldn’t find a solution at the business meeting, and I don’t have a new one either.
“Listen Lisa” he started with a serious expression, and I was terrified. “You probably think I was joking with my statement last month. I have a countdown of three months for you and now you have just two month left. Choose one between that body of yours and this marriage. I will be expecting your visible response in two months’ time.”
He grabbed his car key and turned to face me again. “Then mind you, both of us are not attending any party together and in fact, we can’t go out or anywhere together until you find a solution to that extreme fatness.”
I broke down in tears as he stormed out again.
I have no solution anywhere, or so I thought.
I made up my mind to leave the marriage since his request was unattainable.
Instantly, my phone rang just as I was mournfully arranging my last cloth in my box. It was Olivia.
I picked it up.
“Hi Olivia” I bet I sounded as gloomy as I could, but her excited tiny voice overcame it.
“Guess what Lisa? Your worries are over! I got a friend who can finally help! Her name is Joyce. She was also someone like you!”
“Okay” I know I should be cheerful at the moment, but I just don’t want to raise my hope furthermore.
“I’m putting her on a conference call now!” Olivia adds
“Achieving the body shape you want can be so simple Lisa” Joyce starts
A light chuckle escaped my lip, just another round of fitness coach trying to pull me in with sweet words, or so I thought.
I was about to drop my phone when her next words grabbed my full attention and made me listen carefully.
“Losing weight is not all about the diets you make yourself go through, working out or cutting back on three square meals a day. Accomplishing true physical fitness comes from a complete package of healthy, skillful and informed combination of exercise, nutrition and your mindset. You don’t need to kill yourself in gym to get a killer figure. There are specific foods you can eat to strengthen your health, mind and fitness levels. You can easily get all these wrong with wrong coaches, but with the right ones, you will have all your dreams tick into place. Food, exercise and mindset help each other and none of them can act independently of the other. Where you can also be getting it wrong is through stress eating. This is when you’re exercising and still eating some foods like fatty foods and all, which is very common and makes it difficult to achieve a fitness dream. All you need is a proper guidance and I’ve got something that can help you. Are you interested?”
“Yes…Yes, I am interested” the words emitted my lip subconsciously.
Apart from Joyce’s words touching my true pains. She’d just enlightened a lot I’d never hear from any tutor for the past nine years. At that moment, I was so ready to try something new out again.
“Alright, I’ll be sending you a link to a book; it’s called Easy Lean Body. I’ve actually had my own experience and share of different unsuccessful trials until I stumbled on this book. I’ve never seen methods as productive and easy as those in Easy Lean Body. The book doesn’t just tell you. It shows and walks you through the entire process.”
“Okay, I’ll definitely get it.”
Two months later, I’m out with my husband. He’d deliberately take me out for lunch, and the smile that shined on his face can tell the millions of jollies in his tummy at the moment.
“Can you forgive me Lisa?” he suddenly asked.
“What are you talking about?” I asked, quite surprise
“You know, I acted those ways because I love you. I’m so impressed right now, it’s just one month left and I’m seeing a great deal of changes.”
I smiled to myself. At that instant, my mind only contains three words. It has gone beyond keeping me fit but also saving my marriage. And that is Easy Lean Body. It’s a book everyone, trying to get fit should get.
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